you did try to hold on.

and i thank you for that.

i'll remember all those little memories that we had.

ily forever.

rip, angel. <3

i remember that time very well, when i saw angel back then.

daddy and i walked around mega mall, wanting to adopt a puppy.

at first we wanted to adopt a siberian husky,

but i told daddy that i'll look around first.

and then i saw angel, she was lying there all alone in a small cage.

she was so small and skinny, but she caught me in the eye.

i couldn't remember what i felt at that time, but i knew that she was what i wanted.

i was so glad that i adopted her, and i see her as an angel to me.

so that's where her name came from.

i adopted her on the 7th of january 2003, yes i can still remember.

and she really is an angel. not only to me, but to everyone who knows her.

 

to remember those times when i'm with her, it hurts me alot.

cause i can't spend my time with her anymore cause i'm living in singapore now, my new condo doesn't allow dogs so i can't be with her even though i'm in jakarta, and what's worse is that she's sick.

i know that she's getting old and i can't stop her from growing.

but she's only 6 years old and dogs live up to about 10 years.

i don't know how to not worry, i don't know who to cry on. nobody understands how much she mean to me.

they just think that it's a dog, that's all.

but she's more than a dog, she's a family to me.

it hurts me to see her in this condition.

her first blood test result didn't turn out to be good.

they say they'll re-do the blood test, just to make sure.

i hope they're bloody wrong, and that angel will be healthy again.

please god, i beg you.

don't take angel away from me.

i love her so much.

i can't bear to lose her, she means a lot to me.

she's the only one who's been there for me 24/7.

please, just don't take her away.

you have no idea, how much i miss you.

it's still hard for me to accept the fact that our friendship ended just like that.

and the worst part is that i don't even know why.

you left me stranded here, and my curiousity kills me whenever i come to think about it.

 

the school year has ended, and i'm leaving everything behind... cause looking back will hurt me even more.

i'll make a fresh start in the year 2009.

i'll close the book, and start off with a new one.

and hopefully, one day... just one day, we can be like the way we used to be.

i don't get it.

why only text me when i'm not the only one in the group?

cause you can scold me and bother me as i'm an easy going person?

i can be easy going alright, but i can hold a grudge againts you too if i want to.

i swear my mother can be a fucker at times.

like today, early in the morning go give people attitude.

i just woke up and i don't feel like talking to anyone first.

she talk to me, i gave her a sign and ask her to wait for a while.

then she scold me and smack me in the head. wtf?

fine she gave attitude i didn't bother talking to her, or not later kana more smaking sia.

we kept quite for a while, then she came up to me and ask me to fold the blanket.

i did, but unfortunately my blanket folding is never as neat as hers.

and she not happy again, go scold me like shit saying i never learn and all those stuff.

sorry la i'm not a neat freak like you.

then see me play computer, she not happy again.

she say i play computer during holidays like no life.

wth? isn't it my holiday? why is she controlling what i should do and what i shouldn't do during my holidays?

at least i gave her quite good grades right.

she was expecting me to get all C's and i gave her only 1 C and 1 D, the rest A's and B's.

walao. then somemore ground me at home then make me go for tuition,

i don't mind going for tuition when it's a school day. but it's holiday! exams over leh.

sigh. i guess i'm having a really bad bad bad day.

this is fucking irritating.